When I first got to the hospital, I set up this beautiful altar with crystals, fairy lights, bith affirmation cards, paintings of ancestors from the Philippines and reminders of my grandmother. By the time I got the Pit (pitocin), I was like “Fuck this altar.” It just felt like it was taunting me.

"I happened to be on our kitchen floor at the time. There was no way I was moving and no one asked me to- - this baby was just going to be born right here, next to the laundry closer."

I know that c-sections aren’t seen as a good birth outcome but at the time it felt so empowering to choose...

I know that c-sections aren’t seen as a good birth outcome but at the time it felt so empowering to choose...